The Gift..I did not want..

I am afraid, what if you kill Mommy

and if God takes her away from me

What would I tell Granny,

How would Daddy take care of me alone?

Mommy loves you so much already,

and she takes good care of you

What if she forgets me,

I was her best till now, would I still be?

I fear the tomorrow, when you will arrive

and I would have to become the elder one

What if I am not small anymore,

would they still love me, like they did?

Mommy screamed with pain, tears in her eyes

and Oh I hated you so much

her sorrow teared my heart inside,

I wish I could take you far away from her.

They took her away, I screamed out,Mommy

Dad held my trembling hands, I now knew Fear.

He told me to pray, and that God would help me

I told him, to kill you, I hated you too much.

Hours passed by, I fell asleep with tear-strewn eyes

and I woke up to a crowded outburst, startled by the din.

People were crying, rushing, no one saw me,

As I struggled to find Daddy, where would he be?

There he took me into his arms,

I felt a shudder, What if Mommy..

No, she couldn't, I needed her, I'd told God

What if she was gone, forever?

Gently, he stroked my hair and led me in,

I crept into his chest, I didn't wish to open my eyes ever.

Daddy cajouled me as he asked me to look around,

with fearful eyes, I stood on the ground.

Mommy smiled, as she took me in her arms,

I knew I had found what I needed the most

Wasn't I glad,she was alright..

And then she guided me to you..

Those pretty black eyes, sparkled like molten gold

I saw your little fingers,as they clasped my thumb.

And I trembled at your touch, it seemed like a hot rush

and it warmed me up that cold February night.

I'd wanted God to take you away,

how mean could I be, I wondered.

And as I thought, you smiled at me

And that was the most precious thing, I ever saw.