An attempt at a Good bye

Don’t give me a list of 
possibilities and probabilities
I don’t need “if only’s” and “what if’s”
Chipping away at this wall-
That I have created around my heart…
Brick by brick
I have created this shield
Leaving no vents for friends or foes…

I’m sick of friends
Who chip away at these walls
INSISTENT
PERSISTENT
Like termites
Pest like they put up signboards
Signifying occupancy
And ruin my digestion

I still don’t know how to categorize you
Don’t know if I love you or hate you more…

I should learn the art of staying aloof
Of saying no to friend requests sent by strangers 
And ignore matchmaking attempts…

Don’t give me the silver linings
They don’t work anyway
Just let me go and mingle with the black clouds...