Goodbye my friend...

Goodbye, sweet friend
it was never you
I was my own worst enemy all the time

Is it Enough?

Is it enough to be happy
to breathe
To squint into the light
Is it good enough to have known the
haze like golden dust suspended
in cloudy water
in a cold morning
I'm starting to understand that
nothing is random
Neither in natural terms
nor the pavement-bound
world of humanity

As I Die.

How much can I write?
About my depression, alcohol habits
and the sadness I feel
Before I start repeating myself
Or just get bored
Honestly, I don’t know
Perhaps I'll find out one day

Every day I follow patternized life
Go out and come back, prepare dinner,
Study, do some internet
And then go to bed
Not to sleep
Just to pattern heartbeat
Whether it’s working still
Wondering how

Then there are these loud voices
filling in every portion of ears
You are a looser
You lost everything
You were never anything successful in life
A daughter, a friend, a lover, a student,
A professional, an alcoholic, a poet
You don’t even know what the meaning of life is
Look at you. You, a complete failure

There are other loud voices telling you
You’ll never last the night without us.
You'll cave at 2 in the morning
And be worse off
Than what you are at this time

There is soft voice saying, what’s the harm?
You don’t miss work
You’re not mean

You tried to put your best
but somehow it didn't worked
You paid your duties
Here I'm and it’s you only
and it’s just a night
When its dark and you're alone
And there is no one else
who'll be with you.

And then there's my own voice
And the others are so dominate now
That I can’t even figure out
What it’s saying anymore or if it even cares.

By the way, I now love the depression
And I love how slowly it kills
And how silent death it is
And I am in love with my depression
And how it is slowly killing me
And what a silent death it is…

It’s not that bad actually
That’s what I have always
Thought of how I would like to die
I just never imagined it would come this way.
Cheers..!

O' Pain!

Ah! The woes of heart burn
Eh! Its growl and O! the mourn
Dying daily in thy concern
Ha! Amazed I see! Amazed I see!
How much harsh, you are to me
Alas! For me nothing you feel!
I stay lonely in woes and weal
Here is no zeal, no driving wheal
Only this pain, you gave to me
Hark! I bear in thy memory